Continuance of the last post….

So I forgot one thing, when I was tucking Kaiden into bed tonight I was explaining to him that he needs to start acting like a big boy and following the rules. I explained that when he’s good then mama’s happy and then asked if he remembered how happy mama was when Dave was here, he said yes and I told him that’s because he listens then and behaves. Then Kaiden said something that totally broke my heart and made me cry. He said that he really really misses Dave and that he wishes he was here. He said that Dave not being here breaks his heart….this came from a 4 year-old. Yeah, I broke and started crying and told him that I miss him too and it breaks my heart that he’s not here too…it took everything in me to keep from making a hasty exit from their room. Poor thing

Between sneezes and housework….

Day 97

Well, right now it’s 10am and I’ve been sneezing my face off for about 2 hours. Where oh where are you dear allergy medicine? I took you 2 hours ago, right after the first sneeze and you still haven’t started working for me. You’re breaking my heart lmao

Anyway, the boys have been great this morning, I woke up to them climbing in bed with me and Joshua, as is the norm, asking for tarts. Every morning it’s the same thing…”good morinin mama! I wan tart”. I’m so not complaining either, it’s absolutely adorable. I think Joshua’s going to turn into a pop tart. That, cereal, and hotdogs are his favorite foods and if I’d let him he’d eat his weight in them…all 30 little pounds of him. I love being a mommy, even on the days that I want to pull my hair out because of my boys. These two keep me going every day, I don’t think I’d get out of bed during this deployment if I didn’t have them…well, I’d most likely be out now, but the first month would have been hell if I didn’t have these hooligans keeping me busy. Do all kids like to get tickled? Mine no lie, ask for it. Joshua especially, I tickle him a little bit for a second and he says tickle me. I just playfully pushed him into the back of the couch and he keeps asking me to do it again!

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2 Hours later and my sneezing finally subsides..so that makes for a total of 4 hours worth of sneezing 3-4 times about every 20 minutes or so, as my husband said, that’s a lot of god bless you’s lol. The boys stopped saying bless you after a few sneezes, I don’t blame them. In school people would just leave notes on my desk that simply said “Bless you” because my sneezing fits went on for so long lmao

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Well, it’s 7 now, dinner has been had, baths will be done in about 30 minutes and the boys will be in bed by 830 then my true alone time will start. The nights are always the worst for me. That’s when I feel the most alone…I think that after the day I’ve had today I’m going to make me an orange cream soda after the boys are good and asleep. Talking to Dave tonight made me quite sad, but extremely happy at the same time. I love him so much, I don’t think he really realizes just how much that is. I try to tell him the best way I know how, but it just doesn’t seem like I’m saying it right….

Boys are now in bathed and in bed, hopefully they’ll be asleep before this potential storm hits. That means it’s mama time now, which shall include cleaning up the water mess from Joshua’s bath, doing the dinner dishes, and Lord only knows what else, probably going to mix me a drink and take a hot bath myself…that sounds quite appealing actually…….

 

Night!

August 28, 2011-Potty training saga

Day 96.

Well, I started trying to potty train Joshua this past week, he will be 3 in February (so he’s 30 months), I figure it’s about time for him to start going in the potty. He’s shown signs left and right that he’s ready but constantly decides he doesn’t want to do it. I’ve come to discover that he’s not a huge fan of having pull-ups on, he’d rather go sit on the potty every couple of seconds than allow me to put a one on him, but when he does have them on he goes in them. He knows when he has to go, the other night I was trying to put a dry one on him and he said he wanted to go potty, well he sat down on the potty but didn’t do anything until he was on his way out of the bathroom, thankfully still on the tile. Whining followed because he knew that he wasn’t supposed to pee right there and because it was warm and ucky. He kept saying ewww ucky gross. I explained to him that that’s going pee pee and when he feels like he has to do it again he needs to run and sit on the potty.

This morning was a big step for him, he came to me and told me he went stinky, so I showed him where the stinky goes by dumping it in the potty, I told him to flush the potty and say goodbye to the stinky then explained that one to him too. I’ve gotten him to pee in the potty once, a few days ago, then a little bit later because he saw Kaiden pee standing he decided that he wanted to try to pee standing too (I’d rather him learn to pee sitting first then move to standing but if this works, whatever) I didn’t realize that’s what he was doing until I went in the next time to go myself and realized that there was pee all over the floor around the toilet and on the stool that he had stood on. Gotta love the potty training days, plenty of messes to clean up. Thankfully he is only making messes on hard floor!!!
I signed the boys up for AWANA tonight, Kaiden is a Cubbie and Joshua is a Puggle. Kaiden’s too cute in his vest, I soooo can’t wait to see Joshua in his Puggle shirt standing next to Kaiden in his vest. There WILL be a picture taken and I’ll be sure to post it on here.

I think I’ve about tapped out my brain for the night haha

August 27, 2011

Wow, so it’s been a bit since I’ve posted anything….well, since the last blog post. It is now Day 95 of our deployment, and because of that fact I now have 95 chain links on my wall. It’s going to take up half the living room in a matter of days, and we still have about 3-4 more months left :/ it’s going to be interesting to see how big this thing gets and just how far around the house it goes.

So, what’s happened between Day 4 and Day 95?

The boys have gotten new cars toddler beds, and they LOVE them. I’ve been slowly decorating their room with Cars stuff, I bought wall decals of the cars characters and put them up along the ceiling/wall to make it like a border (totally cute! I’ll have to post pictures of it on fb). I’ve also written out the alphabet on printer paper and taped it up along their walls in order to help teach Joshua the letters and so Kaiden can learn the order of them.

I found a wedding dress and am working on paying it off right now, totally in love with the dress and can’t wait to see the pictures of me next to him in his uniform, we’re going to look sharp lol.

The boys have decided they want to make my life hell and not listen to me, but I’m working on that. I’ve observed that they’re typically better when they are outside of the house and with other children. Trying to find a job so that they can get some time with other kids, away from me, and I can get some time away from them. I had this revelation after coming home from church one of the first few times we went. They were amazing, came in, ate lunch, and went down for nap time without a problem.

The boys got to go on their first vacation to the beach! They loved it and typical of other kids did not want to leave. Joshua was so cute because every time we went down to the beach he’d make a beeline for the ocean. It was a blast but I decided that I’m not willing to do it again without the husband present. 1 because I missed him like mad, 2 because I know he would have been a HUGE help with the boys.

Massive heat equals massive storms and we sure had both this summer. We had temps in the triple digits and even when the temps were even in the 90s our heat indexes were still in the triple digits. And on top of the heat we had humidity. There were a few times I’d walk outside and start sweating before even locking my door. When the heat finally decided to give us a break we still ended up with pretty bad storms, very windy storms, and then something totally unexpected and random happened…..

So I’m sitting on my couch on Tuesday (the 23rd) looking over my schoolwork when all of a sudden it feels like someone’s behind my couch kicking it over and over again. I jumped off of it totally freaked out then realized the pictures and windows were shaking. At that point I thought it was Bragg doing their booms again, then I realized there were no booms before the couch shook, and then it hit me, after hearing the house creaking and shifting, that it was an earthquake! Apparently it originated in Virginia but it was felt all up and down the east coast. I was shocked, as was everyone else. Only after the quake did I really start getting semi-concerned about the next force of nature headed our way…

Hurricane Irene. We got rain bands last night, and a beautiful sunset because of said rain bands, then, after the sun went down the wind started picking up (just like they predicted). What did I do after I got the kids in bed? I opened the door to the patio and planted my butt on the couch and stayed attached to weather channel and fox news lol. I’m glad the boys went to sleep when they did, before the wind got too bad, shoot, I’m glad I went to sleep when I did. I have no clue how bad it got after I racked out, all I know is that everything in my immediate area is still intact…however that doesn’t really mean much since we’re still getting strong winds, anything could still happen.

 

That’s pretty much all that has happened between my last post and this one. Well minus everything that could go wrong deciding to go wrong all at the same time, but I’ll elaborate on that in my next post (might be a continuance of this one later tonight). Right now I’m debating opening my windows and turning the fan only on because it’s not even 81 degrees yet. I do know I’m going to keep an eye on Irene though. I don’t care if she is moving her way up north, I’m interested to see what she does to the extreme north coast.

May 27, 2011

Day 4

Right now it is 730 in the morning and I woke up about 30 minutes ago to yahoo messenger letting me know I had messages from him. So it was like I got to wake up to him again, which, I guess I kind of did . He called while I was getting the boys breakfast and getting myself coffee. He’s doing good, sounds amazing (as good as one can overseas).

Let’s see, on my agenda for today is picking up around the house, spending quality time with the boys because they’re going to their dad’s this weekend then after they go I’ll probably hit up the gym and if it’s not raining the poolside . Not really looking forward to this weekend, it’s my first weekend alone in a while.

Time to face the morning and see what the day holds

May 26, 2011

Day 3

10:00 pm

Well, he’s landed, been there for just over 12ish hours now. He called me at 8 am today to tell me they had finally landed. That was really the only good news I’ve had today. Needless to say I’ve been in a bad mood all day and on the verge of exploding on anyone who so much as looked at me the wrong way. My younger brother goes and decides to play a joke on me today and I went off on him then broke down. That was the first time today I broke down and bawled. Right after I got off the phone with him I decided that I was going to take the boys to the pool. While there Joshua, the youngest, decides that he’s going to jump into the water when I’m not paying 100% attention. Thankfully I was standing right in front of where he jumped in, and was paying enough attention that I was able to catch him just as his head was going under water. Did that stop him from continuing to do it? NO! I get 1, 2, 3, Hi mama! 1, 2, 3, jump! Don’t get me wrong, it’s adorable, except for the fact that he’s FEARLESS and me constantly having to keep an eye on him keeps me from playing with and paying much attention to Kaiden.

After we decided to come back up to the apartment I made the boys dinner, which they scarfed and we did our normal nightly routine. I was great until right after the boys went to bed. That’s when I started texting my mom and called her to tell her the story about Joshua, that was the second time I lost it in a 24 hour period. Lord only knows if/when I’m going to lose it again tonight. This weekend is the time I’m not looking forward to, the boys go to their real father’s house for visitation and my only friend up here isn’t even in town so I get to spend it all alone. Thankfully I already have a plan, hitting the gym tomorrow after Chris gets the boys then lounging by the pool. Saturday will most likely be the gym again since it’s supposed to rain…and Sunday is still up in the air.

Ug, I have so much crap going on in my head and with my family right now I don’t even know where to start. It’s probably best if I don’t air out my dirty laundry out here

May 25, 2011- It sets in

Day 2

8:00 am

Well, it’s the morning of the second day of him being gone and of course I wake up with a migraine! I had plans to do some stuff around the house today…oh well.

I’m waiting to hear from him right now, he said that he’d buzz me this morning after he got up, they ended up staying the night in Maine. The boys are doing good this morning, running around like wild animals, which is totally normal except for the fact that they’re abnormally hyper this morning. Right now they are sitting at the table supposed to be eating but are playing instead…normally I would have gotten pretty upset with them at this point seeing how I’ve told them several times already to eat. They both asked where dad was this morning, just like every morning, and just like every morning I just told them that he’s working. If the oldest asks again tonight around dinner time then I’ll explain a little better again where he is. He called me last night on Skype, testing it out on both his phone, and my new computer, the second our youngest heard dad’s voice he went running for the door all excited because he thought he was home . After he realized that he was on the computer with mama he came running and climbed in my lap along with Kaiden just to be able to hear dad’s voice again.

I just got a phone call from him a few minutes ago, he sounded well rested. Said that he slept great last night, which is good. The hardest part of yesterday was knowing that at one point he was just a matter of yards away from me and I couldn’t see him. I accepted that fact and came home knowing that it was really only a matter of hours and he’d be out of the states. Now, he’s still state side, just up north a little bit…fingers crossed, for his sanity, that they’ll be flying out some time soon today.

Updates as I get them…I have to get rid of this migraine.

10:00 pm

Well, he finally managed to get the flight to the next stop before he’s boots in country. He turned his phone off around 6:15 tonight because the plane was getting ready to start doing it’s thing…it’s finally hit me. He’s out of country and I’m not sure when I’m going to hear from him next. I miss my best friend, I miss him being here…he’s what’s held me together the past several months, kept me sane…now I can’t seem to stop crying. I hate crying. I always end up unable to breathe and get a headache….I feel like such a big cry baby right now, especially knowing that this deployment is supposed to be a short one. It’s not going to be that long until I get to see him again, really, but I married my best friend, the person I tell everything to. The first person that I want to talk to when I get big news, and now it’s just not that easy…I know that I can email him, that’s not the problem…it’s the not seeing him, not feeling his arms around me every night part that gets me…

I have to go, I have laundry that needs to be done and another headache to take care of thanks to my blubbering….God I hate crying!